Common things

Yesterday a customer called in talking about his kids. He was 71 and had a 6 and 9 year old...lol. He had one of those mail order brides! Anyways, he mentioned his girl had autism and we started talking about her and I mentioned TC has autism as well. His daughter is not very high functioning but he talked about what a joy she is. And I said TC is the same. I do count my blessings every day!

Asthma..blah

It is super hot here in Tx. Tc's asthma has been out of control! Poor guy. And his eczema too. I need to order him some more cream but have to wait til' payday. We are walking in the evenings when I am home. This week is more overtime but I won't complain, we need the money!

New photos

TC is a total ham! We have been enjoying the holiday weekend.

Summertime

I can hardly believe TC will be in 4th grade next year and Sara will be a sophomore. Wow, where does the time go? TC still asks all the time if he gets to "stay here" or go to school. I told him he is on summer break so of course he gets to stay here!

This week was nuts at work with lots of system issues and on Tuesday I decided I was calling in the next day. So I did! I took the kids to a movie, I even took a nap, and it was GLORIOUS. I went to work yesterday totally refreshed and the computers were back up and running. Hallelujah!

Today is payday and we are going to see Transformers 3D...........soooo excited! Tomorrow we have to mow and Sunday we will chill. Monday we are doing a bbq for my sister's birthday. Should be fun! That night we will go watch fireworks, we do this every year.

Really?

Last night I got home from work and it was late...of course. This working 9:30 am til 8:00 pm sucks. Bad.

Well, TC really doesn't even want to spend time with me. He always wants Sara. And Sara said, "He thinks I am his mom now." Seriously wtf? Sometimes it just is not fun being a responsible working adult.

Judgments

I work with a lady who has a son with autism. He is not as high functioning as TC. She and I talk a lot about our boys. It is nice to bond with someone who "gets it". One lady who sits beside me started talking about bad kids the other day and I mentioned my autistic son. I told her I am sure I was judged for TC's behavior and she said, "Well your son is sick, you can always tell." I told her, "No, you can't look at my son and tell he is autistic. It is not like being in a wheel chair, it is not that obvious." I could tell she was just clueless. The thing is, this woman had a stroke a couple of years ago, she is in her 40's and she is so judgmental, I cannot stand that.

But anyways, that is our society. I talk to people everyday, and some of them are mentally handicapped. I try to treat every person I talk to with kindness and especially those who are a little slower mentally. They are people too and deserve kindness. That could be you or me, one thing could happen: a car accident, a stroke, ANYTHING could change your mental capacity. We have no control over life.

Having a special needs child is very challenging. It is frustrating. It can be sad and you wish things could be easier. I think of where TC should be instead of in a special needs classroom....barely learning to read. He should be in a normal 4th grade classroom next year. But he won't be and some days it is a hard pill to swallow. I don't think about it much but I do think about it. I don't cry about it anymore, I accept it. It has made me stronger, better, more understanding and that is a blessing.

Autism and frustrations

School is officially out and well....things have been a little challenging. Maybe it is the hotter weather, maybe it is school being out and TC being more anxiety-ridden. I really don't know what it is.

TC has had his good and bad days. Yesterday I took the kids to a pool in the next town. So today of course, TC wanted to go back . We got sunburned and I told him we need to get better and we can go back to the big pool next week...but I went and got him a little pool. He was mad because it was not a big pool. He kept saying over and over, "Mom you lied to me. That pool is too small for me." And it is small, but it will be okay til' I can get him something bigger.

And Sara had a friend over last night so when we got home he was upset that the friend was gone. He went on and on about how he wants "A" (the girl) to come back and he almost cried over it. A lot of days he has a ton of anxiety and whines a LOT! I am working a lot of hours and when I get home, I simply cannot deal with his whiney-ness. It drives me nuts.

Also I am job hunting again because they changed my hours and I am working til' 8 p.m. every night. I have overtime all next week so I will be at work from 9:30 am til 8:00 pm every day.
Hopefully TC's anxiety will lessen. Actually right now he is being really calm.