At work

Man, I will be glad when 3:00 comes. I am at work today. So far, it has been a good day, other than my allergies and my monthly you-know-what.

Sara is with my mother in law going to a baby shower for my father in law's daughter. She is pregnant with a girl. She is due next month, I think.

TC and Hubs were at the lake earlier, TC was eating fries and watching Hubs shoot his bb gun. I hope they have fun and that TC is in a good mood when I get home.
I have another big paper due tomorrow. Hopefully it won't take me all day, but you just never know!!

My weekend will be pretty short nonetheless. I don't like working on Saturday.
BLAH.

Try a little harder!

With Billy's passing, I have tried to do a lot of thinking. I have thought about my relationships. I have tried to change some of the ways I have done things.

I realize life is short and we have to take what we can get.
My family may not be there for me as much as I would like but I am willing to work hard to nurture our relationships.
I also understand that we can't change other people. They are who they are.

My husband sees things differently. He says he has to guard his heart. I think we all do, to an extent. But my husband feels alone a lot of the time. He doesn't really reach out to people. He doesn't really care about relationships with his family.

Until something like losing a family member happens. And I think he is hurt because some people have not reached out to him.

Even though I have done my best, and I am far from perfect, he has been lashing out at me. And it hurts because I am the ONE person who has been there for him for the last 15 years.

I told him last night that he needs to start trying to nurture some relationships.

It is time.