What ifs

Do you ever go there in your mind. Do you ever think "What if my child did not have a disability?" Do you ever wonder what caused the autism or special need?? I went there this week. I cried over an hour wondering if I had just let TC come when he was ready instead of having my dr. induce me.......would TC be a normal 4th grader who could read and who had friends? (Tc's friend Jamel did not move back after all.)

I love TC, I would not trade him for the world. But some days I get very sad and emotional. I wonder about what will happen when hubs and I are very old...most of the care of us (and TC) will fall onto Sara. Will she be there or will she be involved in her own life and just not want to deal with any of it??

I work with a lady who has a son and he is very low functioning. She has him in a school and he is soon to turn 18. She is talking about fostering him out. She is in her 50's, had him later in life. I am thankful.....that TC is very high functioning, and that I am young enough to keep up with him. I realize many kids have seizures (my coworkers son does) and many more health issues than TC. We do have problems with asthma, eczema and allergies; but we deal with them. So I am not ungrateful for my blessings, but some days I do go there.

Too blessed to be stressed

When I am feeling down and out, I will go here and remember how very blessed I am. This woman and her husband lost their son, her daughter lost a brother. No matter what my circumstances are, I am blessed beyond measure. I have two great kids, a loving husband and everything else is small potatoes!

TC sick, me sick

TC was very sick last week. I took him to the dr. He actually had a touch of pneumonia. He is feeling much better!!

I, however, have been sick all week long. I walked the other day and it was sprinkling. Not a good idea, I have been sickly all week long!!!

Is anybody watching Parenthood this season?? Poor Max, it just breaks my heart to see him struggle!

Have a great weekend everyone!

First six weeks of school

Things have been going well this school year. TC is mainstreaming more...he loves his teacher. He actually is enjoying school.

Sara is a sophomore this year, she is making more of an effort. Last year it was not good as far as grades went. She is actually passing and doing way better this year. She is in 2 clubs and recently tried out for a play. She didn't make it but I told her to keep trying!!!

I am waiting on respite care to be approved, that will give Sara some extra money. She will start her driving course soon.

Holiday

I have a love/hate relationship with weekends and holidays. TC really had a fit when he asked could he stay home Tuesday and I told him no! The long weekend was nice but those fits are not fun to deal with. Today he did much better.

I am going to a viewing for my dear friend who passed away over the weekend. She took her own life. I am really sad.

Trip pics and school update

Here are a couple of photos from our trip. We rented a pontoon boat that had a second deck and a slide attached. Tc loved it!

This school year is off to a good start! TC has really done well so far. His teacher made a comment about how he has matured. Even the bus driver said he is doing really great. I am very proud of him. I am heading to work today but will be off Monday, and I am only working 6 hours today.

School review

Both of the kids had a great day. Tc came home with an award for helping the other kids in his class. He happily got on the bus this morning.

We were excited to see his friend Jamel moved back and will be attending school next week. Tc and Jamel are besties!!

Mama is tired so I am off to take a bath.